Welcome to my happy home.....now get your shit and leave.

2:04AM

I start my second job tuesday...its at Gameworks in Sawgrass....you can come visit me but give it a couple weeks before you try to get me fired.

3:49AM

i got a puppy!!!!!!!!!

holy crap he's the cutest thing i've ever seen. I went to an animal hospital place and the lady said that him and his sister were rescued from these people who were abusing them. Freaking bastards. That makes me so mad. The poor thing has two burn marks the size of quarters. I had to take him home and we named him Rocky. He has the sweetest disposition and i dont even care that he peed in the house twice today already. He'll learn. i'm not really sure what kind he is though and neither did the lady when we adopted him...how would i find something like that out?

Current mood: excited

11:32AM - serves 80 if you sip it....

Arbys' Sauce

1 cup ketchup
2 teaspoons water
1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
1/4 teaspoon onion powder
1/4 teaspoon pepper
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon Tabasco pepper sauce

1. Combine all the ingredients in a small saucepan and cook over medium heat, stirring constantly, until the sauce begins to boil, 5 to 10 minutes.
2. Remove the sauce from the heat. Cover and allow to cool.
3. Pour into a covered container for storage in your refrigerator. Keeps for a month or two.
Makes 1 cup

4:17PM - i dont know what you could use this for but i could make you something smaller too...

9:25AM

i made this with my brothers program...not bad for my first try....i like doin this kinda crap...lemme know if any body wants me to make them sumthin cause it only takes a sec.

Current mood: creative

12:08PM - i think i might need stiches now...

i was eating doritos just now and swallowed a piece of a chip and i i could feel it going down...crap that hurt..........its gonna hurt coming out too!!! hahahahahaha......oh gross i'm sorry you had to hear that.

4:46AM - caaaaaannnnnn't sleeeeeeep

i guess i got used to waking up every two hours to take care of travis while hes been sick the past week....now that hes better...i can't sleep.

stupid internal clock.

Current mood: uncomfortable

1:54AM - my brother made this for me in photoshop...its so freakin awesome

Current mood: happy

11:58PM - JOIN THIS FORUM NOW!!!!!!!!!!! BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1:32PM - sound clip of my favorite comic

http://www.brian-regan.com/Regan/BrianRegan-YouToo.mp3

12:37PM - yummy.....

this site has like fast food and restaraunt recipes.....


http://www.topsecretrecipes.com/recipes.htm

Current mood: hungry

12:17PM - everything sounds so much prettier in spanish

no puedo creer que el tanque septico se bacio en mi cuarto ayer

hahahahaha

Current mood: sick

2:20AM - Why the HELL is it so freakin cold outside!?

I remember that one fateful day when Coach took me aside. I knew what was coming. "You don't have to tell me," I said. "I'm off the team, aren't I?" "Well," said Coach, "you never were really ON the team. You made that uniform you're wearing out of rags and towels, and your helmet is a toy space helmet. You show up at practice and then either steal the ball and make us chase you to get it back, or you try to tackle people at inappropriate times." It was all true what he was saying. And yet, I thought something is brewing inside the head of this Coach. He sees something in me, some kind of raw talent that he can mold. But that's when I felt the handcuffs go on.

Current mood: cold

2:18AM

seeing the half eaten hind part of a rat lying on your bathroom floor is bad.

seeing your cat eating finishing off the rest of that rat is worse.

having to clean up that rat's entrails and un-eaten organs makes me puke.

my mom said it means he loves me cause he's bringing it back to house. i'd rather have chocolates.

(hey marc i got some more kareoke cd's if you're ready for another round of "Kari Sings The Greatest Hits".....i'll make steeeeaaaaaks!!!)

Current mood: grumpy

1:22AM

i left crayons in the back window of my car and they all melted and formed one huge crayon.

that was the highlight of my day.

Current mood: hungry

1:10AM

I saw Adam tonight when i picked Travis up after work. He's sick and he's lost a lot of weight. He's not lookin too good right now. I'm sure he's got a lot goin on in his head right now. I'm not sure exactly what happened cause somebody said he told him that he got kicked out...but that always does sound a little better than "i quit". He didnt say much except for hi...maybe he felt awkward...i dunno..i'm not going to let him get to me.

i typed up my resume tonight (its a tad bit embellished..but not too much). tommorrow morning i'm going to meet with the owner of this day care by my house to see if i can teach like a kids art class like one or two days a week in exchange for letting travis go there for free or maybe a reduced tuition. that would help a lot cause day care is expensive and i'm not makin that much money just yet.

oh yea and marc...sorry i didnt get a chance to call you back...i'll be at the studio (singing the song we wrote about a girl he used to know...haha avril) after like 6 or so if you wanna stop by and say hi.

Current mood: busy

11:51PM

travis has the sniffles. i have to take him to the doctor tommorrow.

adam got home at 11 tonight. i really want to know how he got out of bootcamp. i thought that was really hard to do...like you sign the papers and they own you. its weird i guess i liked it beter with him there cause then it was like he wasnt out havin fun and stuff...like my revenge or something. now he's back and probably isnt gonna get a job to support his kid and let his parents baby him again. he's never gonna grow up if they dont force him to do something with his life..thats why he quit bootcamp...cause they let him. i bet that as soon as he called home sayin how he didnt wanna run or something they made some calls and got him out of there. i'm slowly getting my life together..i've got a job at a studio..i'm working on getting my agent's lisence and i want to go back to school soon too. i'm not getting any money from anybody...yea his parents buy me food and diapers every once and a while but travis needs more than that. and adam needs to get his act together. now that he quit the navy travis has no health insurance right now and i have to get him on medicaid. but that wont be till september4...and now he just got sick and i have to take him to the pediatrician tommorrow morning and pay the full thing witch is like $150. i get so frustrated cause i'm doing all the work for travis and his own father isnt doing a damn thing. i thought at least when he's in the navy he'd be getting steady pay and benefits but now he went and screwed it all up. i've got nothing to lose so why should i care if he doesnt like what i have to say to him. i might as well have adam sign travis' custody papers ovveer to me cause it doesnt look like he's gonna do anything for him anyway.

i dont care anymore. i'm sick of people walking all over me and taking advantage of me and its not gonna happen anymore.

6:49AM - guess who decided they didnt want to be in bootcamp anymore.

Adams mom told me that he quit bootcamp. and wants to come home. I didnt know you could do that. so now hes in a holding cell with all the other quitters. none of them know when they're coming home but i figure that they just keep them there for a pretty long time and torture them for not going through with it. (not like violent bloody torture but like verbal torture)and also it's up in chicago and it tey have to pay to send him back so i'm sure the navy isnt going to do it right away. but when he finally does come back i'm gonna tell him that his ass better find a job quick causes he needs to finally do something to support his kid. i thought thats what he went into the navy for.....

i think you can tell that you're over someone when you can look at pictures and old letters and things with out feeling anger or sadness...you just look at the things, remember the good times and thats that.

i'm finally on medication now for my add. i wish i would've had it when i was in highschool....i feel so much better now.

i was up in naples the other night...last minute road trip...it was nice to get away from the baby for a night but i missed him so much.

i've been having these weird flashbacks lately of a bathroom and an older man...i dont know if i dreampt them or if they really happened. but i'm like 3 or 4..really young. its disturbing.

Current mood: peaceful

5:46PM

so my brother was planning on going to Pennsylvania to visit family and surprise some friends that he hasnt seen in like 4 years. he calls me a little while ago upset and crying. his three best friends he's known from elementary school were out driving last night and crashed into a tree. i think they were drinking. two of them died instantly and one's still in the hospital with broken vertibre. i feel so bad for him. i wish i knew what to say to him to make him feel better. i never know what to do in those kind of situations except for hugs....but maybe thats all he needs. i remember how we all used to play manhunt out in the neighborhood at night and them all spending the night at my house with my brother and playing pranks on me while i was sleeping...its so hard to think that they're really gone. and that also makes me worry about my brother driving out late at night too. he's starting to get into things that he shouldnt and i always tell him that if he ever needs a ride i'll come pick him up, no questions asked....i wont even tell our mom. i just hope he's smart about whatever he does. if anything maybe this will make him think if he's ever in that situation.

Current mood: sad

2:28PM

i didnt think i was going to cry, but i did....but i didnt let him see it.
i think it was a mix of of anger, relief, frustration, and sadness, if that makes any sense. Last night i took travis over to say goodbye to his dad before he left for bootcamp. i didnt even get a goodbye...let alone a hello. well i guess i'll see him in three months....

Current mood: weird